Saturday, December 10, 2011
All Out Of Sorts
I am usually a positive, upbeat, happy person but lately I've been unraveling like this zebra. My body is feeling it and hating me. I am in a mental slump. I've been feeling it in my body for awhile. I'm feeling sluggish, tired, and blah. I've been working out daily but it just isn't helping.
I'm going through a lot of personal issues going on in my head. I'm feeling disappointed about everything I do and can't see the positive. I'm reading into other's emotions and taking them too personal.
Lately I've been really feeling that every day is like high school all over again. I was (and still am) the girl who loves to make everyone happy and puts myself last. I always tried to be involved but was often the one that became invisible. I'm feeling that way again and hate it. I'm in my 20s and shouldn't feel this way. I've tried to not "try" anymore and just have a bad day but then I get told that I am being rude. I just can't win.
Ok now that I've ranted I'm going to make a change. I was inspired by Paige over at Running Around Normal Post on negativity. She mentioned this book and how it helped so I downloaded it today and will be listening to it.
I've also made a list of people who are always there for me to rant to and I know will always support me. I am also listening to podcasts of sermons from Radiant Church and reading my bible more. I know that God is always there for me to turn to.
Hopefully all this will work, along with school and work being done this week! If you have any other suggestions please let me know :)